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A few years ago I decided to start a new career as a performer. I used to be a biology teacher but couldn't face walking around in a white coat all day teaching children who didn't want to learn. Actually it wasn't so much the children as the system cause I think all children want to learn - they just don't all want to learn in schools. Anyway I now work as a Life and Executive coach. Work is perhaps not the right word because it never feels like work. I just love to see people grow and change. I love it when they peel of the layers of limiting beliefs and find their true self. And I make some great frends in the process. I've re-discovered my writing and have published two poetry books and now working on 2 CDs, a novel, a book of short stories and talking to someone about a collaoration on a film script. That should keep me busy for a whild. Oh and I do bellydance.
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Thursday, 29 January 2009

A social event

I'm going out tonight - socially. Can't remember the last time. Life beginning to get back into some sort of rhythm. I joined a gym and started today, and as such is making the first steps to shifting the mini tyre that's found its way round my waist during the last 4 months. And I'm going out tonight socially - did I mention that?
Tuesday, 27 January 2009

Back to normal?

Had to find the energy from somewhere today to get the papers and the house ready for viewing (a post grad law student and an Itialian teacher) She's very interested, he's a bit more hesitant. She came on her own, he brought a friend (maybe because of the language thing) Was expecting someone else but he didn't show. I have very mixed feelings about sharing my home. While all the building work was going on I had adjusted to thinking about it as a building site, a project. And as I dressed it for viewing i still thought of it as an HMO, but it looked cold and impersonal. Someone said the lounge felt like a hostel. So I personalised it and now it feels like my home again, comfortable, warm, cosy; full of memories, full of love. As I cleansed it with frankinscence and blessed it this morning I realize that it's not just about whether a tennant can afford the rent - it's very much about whether our spirits are in tune with each other. We've (Andrew and I) given ourselves till the end of the week to iron out the glitches, then I think Andrew will have a couple of weeks off, and we start looking for the next one (or so he tells me). It will probably take months before we are back to normal - yeah I hear someof you say - 'you were never normal'
Saturday, 24 January 2009

A week's not long enough

Got back from Tenerife last night. A week was not long enough. Did very little, read Barack Obama's 'Dreams from my father' and 'The audicity of hope', watched his inauguration on Sky News and felt proud all over again. Spent most days at the beach or nestled on rocks sunning ourselves like lizards, trying to warm the bones for slow release on return. Finding it hard to get going again. Continued lazing today - by the radiator - and catching up on a few phonecalls. Another month of this would be fine.
Thursday, 8 January 2009

Gate fever

I got a really great deal to Tenerife - the incentive to finish this week.
Wednesday, 7 January 2009

Nearly there

Two bedrooms ready to move into. Kitchen ready for use. By end of tomorrow all bedrooms should be ready and by Friday the lounge and bathroom should be ready too. We can advertise now but we'll have the skip moved before we have any viewings. We are still knackered.
Tuesday, 6 January 2009


Snagging is well underway. A whole day spent re-organizing the loft. Felt like deja vous. This is how the project started and it cannot end till the upheavel necessary to lay cables and fit a new tank is sorted out. And we did it. Years of history stored; a new office created. Tomorrow we'll clear more stuff out of the front bedroom and put up the furniture and the following day the lounge should be cleared. We are definitely on target to finishing at the end of the week. The painter will return tomorrow to sort out a few bits as will the electrician. We need to get the guys back who fitted the toilet - we discovered it's not screwed down, and the chippy will be back to shave a few doors and build a cupboard. We even managed to get out for a meal tonight. Life is slowly getting back to normal.
Monday, 5 January 2009

An oasis

I woke up this morning and for a few delicious moments lay in bed relishing the thought that there would be no workmen today. I didn't have to set the alarm, didn't have to rush out of bed half asleep to open the door, didn't have to put on a bright perky face when all I wanted to do was go back to bed. I lay there in the dim light and smiled, stretched out like a starfish and savoured the feel of the sheet against my skin. It was 10 a.m. before I got up - oh what a long time since I could endulge myself like this.

We spent the day writing a snags list with no enthusiasm to attend to anything on it. I made some feeble attempt to dismantle the stereo (yes stereo its over 30 years old) then gave up and phoned a friend. Yes I reminded myself, it's possible to have a social conversation in the day.

Andrew made an attempt to fit heaters in the utilities room as the forcast is for -8 degrees tonight, and I made an attempt to sweep another layer of dirt off the kitchen floor. Tomorrow we'll make a more concerted effort to start on the snags list - today was just deliciously quiet and peaceful.
Sunday, 4 January 2009

Things are looking better

The decorator finished today. HURRAY! The electrician finished all the work inside HURRAY - all that's left is to fit the metres to the washing machine and tumble dryers out in the utilities room. He seemed stunned (as he walked through the house with his list) that everything was ticked off. I gave both the decorator and the electrician a hug as they left. They've been here so long they felt like family. Tomorrow we begin the final push - me and Andrew - working through our own snags list. It feels like giving birth - this is the final week and the anticipation is huge, we know what kind of baby it will be, we love it but will others? We think so. The boys came for one last meal here last Sunday and my brother and his family today. They all like the changes. With all the talk of integrated smoke detection systems, emergency lighting and fire doors they were expecting the house to look more industrial. They were pleasantly surprised. Andrew and I are really looking forward to a break soon. Looked at an all inclusive to Gran Canaria but it could be anywhere that offers sun, sea, sand and the opportunity to sleep.