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A few years ago I decided to start a new career as a performer. I used to be a biology teacher but couldn't face walking around in a white coat all day teaching children who didn't want to learn. Actually it wasn't so much the children as the system cause I think all children want to learn - they just don't all want to learn in schools. Anyway I now work as a Life and Executive coach. Work is perhaps not the right word because it never feels like work. I just love to see people grow and change. I love it when they peel of the layers of limiting beliefs and find their true self. And I make some great frends in the process. I've re-discovered my writing and have published two poetry books and now working on 2 CDs, a novel, a book of short stories and talking to someone about a collaoration on a film script. That should keep me busy for a whild. Oh and I do bellydance.
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Thursday 23 February 2012

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I've now integrated my blog into my website at http://www.predencia.co.uk/ moving closer to an integrated me. Hope to see you there.
Tuesday 21 February 2012

Lesson 51 - Review 1

Beginning with today we will have a series of review periods. Each will cover five of the ideas already presented, starting with the first and ending with the fiftieth. Devote two minutes or more to each practice period, thinking about the related comments. Do this as often as possible during the day. Try to do the exercises whereever you are, even if it's not quiet. The purpose of your learning is to enable you to bring the quiet with you, and to heal distress and turmoil. This is not done by avoiding them and seeking a haven of isolation for yourself.

Today's review covers the following ideas

1. Nothing I see means anything

2. I have given what I see all the meaning it has for me

3. I do not understand anything I see

4. These thoughts do not mean anything

5. I am never upset for the reason I think

Hard to believe that 50 days have gone by already, and that these ideas were so challenging at the beginning. I've not really been practicing these today, other than beginning and end of day. What's been with me constantly is an idea from lesson 42

'Nothing is lacking that is needed, and nothing is included that is contradictory or irrelevant.' It is my contant reminder that life is exactly as it should be for what I need to learn.

I haven't written much today, mainly because I didn't go to bed till 4 am today, was writing till after 3 and then needed to wind down a bit. Wrote nearly 6000 words and took the wordcount to just under 60000. It's looking very possible that the other 30000 could be written by the end of the month - but would need another few long nights.

Forgot to add my friend's link to her book last night

http://www.amazon.co./dp/B007B2EBA0 'Daddy's Girl' by Lucie Riley

More pics for grey days. (Enterprise Beach - Barbados)



Monday 20 February 2012

Lesson 50 - Sustained by God

'I am sustained by the love of God.'

Here is the answer to every problem that will confont you, today and tomorrow and thoughout time. In this world you believe you are sustained by everything but God. Your faith is placed in the most trivial and insane symbols; pills, money, 'protective' clothing, influence, prestige, being liked, knowing the 'right' people, and an endless list of forms of nothingness that you endow with magical powers.

Only the love of God will protect you in all circumstances. It will lift you out of every trial, and raise you high above all the perceived dangers of this world into a climate of perfect peace and safety.

For ten minutes, twice today, morning and evening, let the idea for today seep deep into your consciousness. Repeat it, think about it, let related thoughts come to help you recognise it's truth, and allow peace to flow over you like a blanket of protection and surety.

What an amazing lesson, what an amazing day. I handled every situation in the knowledge that I am sustained by the Love of God. The dentist actully commented on how calm I was as he poked, prodded and wedged guey stuff into my mouth to take impressions of my teeth. I jumped the queue at the bank as someone showed me how to use the new machine that allows you to deposit cash and cheques and get a reciept. Tenant issues that could have been difficult were sorted very quickly, carpet cleaning was rebooked quickly and easily, and joy of all joys I wrote over twenty pages tonight, nearly 6000 words. It was just flowing like a tap. Completing the 90,000 words by the end of the month is looking tantalisingly possible.

Mind you, as well as doing these exercises, I'm also doing an hour of mainly ascension based meditation each day.

My friend Camella published her novel today on Amazon. Congratulations. Thought a lot about Barbados today, hence the bright flowers, as it was a pretty grey day here.
Sunday 19 February 2012

Lesson 49 - Hearing voices

'God's voice speaks to me all through the day.'

It is quite possible to listen to God's Voice all through the day without interrupting your regular activities in any way. The part of your mind in which truth abides is in constant communication with God, whether you are aware of it or not. It is the other part of your mind that functions in the world and obeys the world's laws. It is this part that is constantly distracted, disorganised and highly uncertain. The part that is listening to the Voice of God is calm, always at rest, and wholly certain.

We will need at least four 5-minute practice sessions today, and more if possible. We will try actually to hear God's voice reminding you of Him and of your Self. Listen in deep silence, be very still and open your mind. Go past the raucous shrieks and and sick imaginings that cover your real thoughts and obscure your external links with God. Sink deep into the peace that waits for you beyond the frantic, riotous thoughts and sights and sounds of this insane world. You do not live there .

Repeat today's idea frequently, with eyes closed when you can, realising that you are inviting God's Voice to speak to you.

I was exhausted after all day at the theatre yesterday, but, as my body was crying out for exercise I went to the gym before going to the city centre to meet a client for a coaching session. Today's lesson wasn't particularly challenging for me, as I feel I already engage in practices that have been opening up the channel to hearing God's voice more clearly, i.e. meditation, deep breathing, prayer, and recently I've given up alcohol. I am working on being as clear a channel as possible. Today's lesson was a great opportunity to remain focused on listening. Coaching is such a wonderful occupation, because it forces you to listen to your clients, and, as they are also expressions of God, creates the opportunity to hear the voice of God directly.

While I waited for our meeting I did some people watching in the Bull Ring, particularly the children on the trampoline. Had planned to go to the storytelling cafe at the Ikon Gallery but was too tired. Listening to the body.

Novel a little slow today, but moving.
Saturday 18 February 2012

Lesson 48 - Nothing to fear

'There is nothing to fear.'


The idea for today simply states a fact. It is not a fact to those who believe in illusions, but illusions are not facts. In truth there is nothing to fear. It is very easy to recognise this. But it is very difficult to recognise it for those that want illusions to be true.

Today's practice periods will be very short, very simple and very frequent. Merely repeat the idea as often as possible. You can use it with your eyes open at any time and in any situation. It is strongly recommended, however, that you take a minute or so whenever possible to close your eyes and repeat the idea slowly to yourself several times. It is particularly important that you use the idea immediately, should anything disturb your peace of mind.

The presence of fear shows that you are trusting in your own strength. The awareness that there is nothing to fear show that somewhere in your mind, though not necessarily in a place you recognise as yet, you have remembered God, and let His strength take the place of your weakness. The instant you are willing to do this there is indeed nothing to fear.

It was great to have such an easy lesson I thought this morning as I read it, especially as today was the performances of Romance is Dying. The run throughs and tech runs were nail bitingly close to the matinee performance, which played to an audience of approx forty. The evening show played to a packed house (the theatre actually oversold tickets and some people had to be turned away) All the actors really raised their game and put on a good show.

My peace was disturbed by a tenant not giving the correct notice, but not for long as I repeated today's lesson. My peace was disturbed when I found a parking ticket on my car when I went back a few minutes late to put more money on it. I repeated today's lesson. One person who'd booked to come to the show pulled out, I repeated today's lesson. I am realising that fewer and fewer things are disturbing my peace. I was also repeating yesterday's lesson, 'God is the strength in which I trust,' and the lesson from the day before, 'God is the Love in which I forgive.' Together they are a powerful set of affirmations, totally grounding and liberating.
Friday 17 February 2012

Lesson 47 - God is strength

'God is the strength in which I trust.'


If you are trusting in your own strength, you have every reason to be apprehensive, anxious and fearful. What can you predict or control? What is there in you that can be counted on? What would give you the ability to be aware of all the facets of any problem, and to resolve them in such a way that only good can come of it? What is there in you that gives you the recognition of the right solution, and the guarantee that it will be accomplished?


Of yourself you can do none of these things. To believe that you can is to put your trust where trust is unwarranted, and to justify fear, anxiety, depression, anger and sorrow. Who can put his faith in weakness and feel safe? Yet who can put his trust in strength and feel weak?


Today we will try to reach past your own weakness to the Source of real strength. Four 5-minute practice periods are necessary today. As usual, repeat the idea, then spend a minute or two searching for situations in your life which you have invested with fear, dismissing each one by telling yourself:


'God is the strength in which I trust.'


Now try and slip past all concerns related to your own sense of inadequacy. In the latter phase of the practice period, try to reach down into your mind to a place of real safety. You will recognise that you have reached it if you feel a sense of deep peace, however briefly. There is a place in you where there is perfect peace. There is a place in you where nothing is impossible. There is a place in you where the strength of God abides.


These lessons are so very timely. There was much in my life today that could have thrown me off balance and make me feel inadequate. In addition to the four practice periods, I was constantly reminding myself that God is the strength in which I trust. Its amazing what an anchor it was.


I had a deep massage today, with some reflexology. I think from now on I'm going to include at least 15 minutes of reflexology in my treatment regime. It was very balancing, and much needed as I haven't had an acupuncture treatment in a while.


Ideas for the novel came flooding in, particularly where to end this first one and where to begin the sequel. Although I only wrote 2,500 words today, I spent some time working out the new structure. The words are flowing, and, had I not gone to the dress and technical rehearsal for Romance is Dying, I would have written more. Tomorrow I'm all day at the theatre, offering support and advice.


I watched the video recording of the Valentine day reading from Dare to Love, and for the first time could see the benefit of an audio book. In the meantime I'll record extracts for publicity purposes, especially as I spoke to Camella today and she said the articles in The Nation in Barbados are very tastefully done. She's been keeping the papers for me. So much to do. So much guidance needed. Now more than ever I need to put my trust in God.
Thursday 16 February 2012

Lesson 46 - God is Love

'God is the Love in which I forgive'
God does not forgive because He has never condemned. And there must be condemnation before forgiveness is necessary. Forgiveness is the great need of this world, but that is because it is a world of illusions. Those who forgive are therefore releasing themselves from illusions, while those who withhold forgiveness, are binding themselves to them. As you condemn only yourself, so do you forgive only yourself.
Yet although God does not forgive, His love is nevertheless the basis of forgiveness. Fear condemns and love forgives.
Today's exercise is similar to yesterday's, three 5-minute practice periods. Repeat the idea with eyes closed, spend a minute or two searching your mind for those whom you have not forgiven. It does not matter 'how much' you have not forgiven them. You have forgiven entirely or not at all. It is safe to say that anyone you do not like is a suitable subject. Mention each one by name and say:
'God is the Love in which I forgive you (Name)
After you've applied the idea to all those that come to mind, tell yourself
'God is the Love in which I forgive myself'
Use the idea in any situation you feel you need to during the day.
I am overwhelmed by the power of this lesson. I was working with forgiveness with a client today, a major issue in her life, an exercise which we begun last week and is beginning to bear fruit in terms of finding some inner peace. I was feeling pretty chuffed with myself when I searched my mind and could find no-one that I really disliked. However, by the end of the evening I was personally challenged with one person, not from a point of dislike, but from a point of irritation. I'm putting it down to the fact that I was tired, which raises the question, can we only be loving when we are fresh and free from fatigue?
Physically and emotionally drained today, looking forward to my massage tomorrow. No brain space to write the novel tonight.